I believe I have gone through the majority of my life “winging it.” Likely in the literal sense, too.
School tended to be relatively easy for me. Well, let me correct that. High school was easier for me. It came easier to me. I do remember struggling in elementary school and middle school. Especially with math. Oh, time tests, you were the bane of my existence! And I still consider you my arch-nemesis. My children bring one of you home and I have nightmarish flashbacks! …I better move on now, before I have a breakdown…
Anyway, I have made my way through a lot of my life by going by my instincts and gut feelings. Also known as winging it. Flying by the seat of my pants. BS-ing. Improvising. Pulling from thin air! Whatever phrase you’d like to toss in there, even “making it up as I go.”
Overall, my instincts have served me well: Meeting people (although, this totally can be debated), writing some college papers, raising my kids, being a parent. Or an adult.
The funny thing is, or tragic depending on how you look at this, it has only come to my attention how much of my life has been just “winging it.” And though it has served me well it has only been in the short term. It will (and is) giving me a huge disservice in the long term.
When my kids were younger, using my instincts worked pretty well. Now that they are getting older, though…I’m finding my instincts have absolutely no idea what to do. Which means I have no idea what I’m doing!
I can say similarly for adulthood, college, life in general. I’m finding that “winging it” is no longer beneficial to me and that it is actually harming me. Which is why dear friend, I am telling you this. DON’T do what I’ve done! IT’S A TRAP!!!
I say that last part only partially in jest. Truly, it is a trap. It (winging it) will fail you in the long term.
So I say all this to warn you, reader, but also to make my own declarations. And pray that you will hold me accountable.
I, Ina, am not going to “make things up” as I go anymore. I need structure in my life. I need relatively solid routine. I need focus. I can no longer rely on my now-faulty photographic memory (kids….they’ll suck that right out of you!).
My plan is to now be diligent with my time and energy, instead of lethargic. I am going to start writing down my schedule for the day, each day. I literally am going to schedule everything. I will have a weekly plan (look at my awesome weekly calendar I got for that!). I will set goals on paper, not just dream about them and hope they come true (God does not bless the path of those who don’t move their feet). I will prepare daily, weekly, and monthly goals. I will hold myself to reaching those goals.
My overall goals will include making sure my family is getting everything they need (homework done, sports practice and events, transportation, food, clothes, clean home, faith, etc.). Working my SeneGence/LipSense business to the fullest and best of my ability (I need to prove to myself that I can). This means scheduling and planning everything! Growing my team. Growing my faith. Serving my faith. Growing my knowledge of taking care of my family. Serving in my ministries.
Yes, this may appear to be a lot. But I know in my soul this is necessary. I am no longer ok with just “winging it.” And, my lovely friend, you shouldn’t be either.